我为什么要这样子活下去？？！！！！ By Wei Hong(my youth leader at blessed church at Kuching))

最近有一股的火在我的里面燃烧，这个问题“我为什么要这样子活下去”一直在我的脑海打转。。。。

我真的已经非常厌倦这种生命，这种生活！一年总有几次的麻木、冷淡，一年总有几次的失去焦点，分心。。。。难道这就是一个基督徒正常的“规律”吗？I DON’T THINK SO!!!!!!! 基本上，我算是一个忙碌的人，家庭、工作、事奉等等。。。。难道忙碌就是我最好的理由疏远神吗？难道每一次都要神藉着人、事、物来提醒，然后就开始感到亏欠，一把泪一把涕的来到神的面前悔改，然后就会比较“专心”的爱主。。。。。可是不久之后又打回原点，然后又再重复第一个步骤。我知道神总是有恩典怜悯，从不定罪。但，为什么总是要神担忧我呢？

我不是哪一种“超属灵”的人，但我不要一直这样的活下去，我要选择更认真、更火热（不是宗教火热）、我要救更多灵魂、我要影响更多人来到神的面前。

最近，我也开始禁食至少21天，一天两餐。我不是迷信禁食，但我确实知道禁食所带来的果效。我为少年人禁食，我也为我自己禁食，我要把这“老我”给治死。

我相信神真的开始做工，很多我所失去的负担和爱开始回来。昨天的少年团契聚会，是今年以来最有恩膏的一次聚会！许多年轻人告诉我，他们被摸着，被唤醒！我问他们同样的问题：你为什么要这样活下去？为什么以前所丢弃的坏习惯又再进入生命？为什么失去起初的爱？我鼓励他们也学学禁食，近乎90%的年轻人回应！

我知道火开始燃烧！是个开始，不是结束。。。。但我也会格外谨慎： 不要再失去，不要又再回到原点！

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My day!!

This is my birthday story line....

Taken plane went back to kuching. (Miow Miow town)

Hehehe... Kuma-kuma from my Brother

Blow the 1st birthday cake at my home...

Tiramishu Cheese cake

Celebrating with my church friends...

2nd cake...

Cheese Cake

Celebrating with Pat,Ade,Jess..

Wow so surprise.. Jess Hide in my room....Holding this cake..

Nice.. Coklat cake..

The 1st present i receiving.. The necklace.. So nice, is handmade d!!! Frm Florence..

But!!!!!!!!!!

I just knew that most of my friends knew i enjoy eating... So, i had 3 cakes.....

Still remember i got a positive comment from my friend eating with u and watching u so enjoy eating yr lunch made me buka selera and happy...

Btw, I gain weight alrdy lol...

How!!!!

Annul dinner coming soon, although i seem like don't care..

But, i also want to be 1 night Cinderella..

Although, i knew i don't had the quality of it but I just want 2 be la..

I not yet buy dress lel!!!

Nvrmind ,cinderella also last minute d ma!!!(sendiri pujuk sendiri)

Love U

Dont want to follow the law and regulation for a minute!!!
K or not!!!!


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